Ok, now that a few days have passed, my jaw is settling down now, although I still can't chew much of anything.  No more steak for me.  Unfortunatly how they got this bad was a bacteria that is passed along throught my dads side of the family, and mixed with not taking care of myself in the growing years means I am paying for it now. 

Not much going on this week, just healing and maintaining my abstinence of chemicals.  I'm winning too. No more urges or cravings.  Once we heal and get ourselves fully cleaned out, we can start the real magical work.  I try to refrain because I do not feel my energy is healthy enough. 

No more excuses here.  And not since i've found this wonderful community of pagans who inspire me to do more and be more.  Thank you everyone.

Tala, i'm going to look into this reike you spoke of, i've been hearing a lot about it latley. And to leave you all with a bit of inspirational rock lyrics (hear's to you jodi)

Rush - Freewill

There are those who think that life is nothing left to chance,
A host of holy horrors to direct our aimless dance.

A planet of playthings,
We dance on the strings
Of powers we cannot conceive.
"The stars aren't aligned
Or the gods are malign"-
Blame is better to give than receive.

You can choose a ready guide in some celestial voice.
If you choose not to decide, you still haven't made a choice.
You can choose from phantom fears and kindness that can kill;
I will choose a path that's clear-
I will choose Free Will.

There are those who think that they were dealt a losing hand,
The cards were stacked against them- they weren't born in lotus-land.

All preordained-
A prisoner in chains-
A victim of venomous fate.
Kicked in the face,
You can't pray for a place
In heaven's unearthly estate.

Each of us-
A cell of awareness-
Imperfect and incomplete.
Genetic blends
With uncertain ends
On a fortune hunt that's far too fleet.

Written by Neil Peart